What Am I To Look Foward To

I'm in the process of growth I have gone back to school to get a higher degree and better myself.
In this process I had to let some things go that were hindering me.
I was told that I was unfair in this process but I was blind sided for years. I let things go past that I should have addressed and now I'm at the point where I needed to change everything.
I need to get a focus on my life and learn how to deal, speak up, put my foot down with out getting angry. Class starts tomorrow wish me luck.

Today Positive In All

Today has been a blessed one. I am feeling so good right now, not because its Sunday Its because Its another day that God has allowed me to get up and do the things that I have to do. My process began a month ago and is going to continue until I get the result that I desire and I will succeed in completing  everything I do. I am looking forward to my progress today so ttyl.

What Is True happiness

What is true happiness to me?
True happiness is to be one with God.
Being able to get along with anyone .
having the ability and the know how to get any and everything I want.
What do you think?

Weirdness In The Sky

I was on my way home on the bus  and I notice these weird clouds in the sky. When I first looked up at them the first thing that came to my mind was "something is on fire", but as I got closer to my home I realized that there is no smoky smell, fire trucks or blackness filling the sky.
These are clouds and never in my life have I seen them shaped like this.  I felt I had to share it with the online world. So here you go weird shaped clouds in the sky.

Why I Call Myself "THE ONE"

I labeled myself this because I'm a very good person who spends not some but all my free time with my children. I will give to my children before myself. I have given my all to my family and ask nothing in return.
Not every mother is like me and I like to think that there are some out there better than me. I'm not perfect, no one is but in this family I am The One

Damn

From Friday to Tuesday I was sick as a dog. puking out my fucking guts and shitting up a storm and all the while I has to cook, clean, and take care of the baby. Hell no I got no help no body gave me any sympathy or remorse. My insides burned like hell just drinking water but did anyone care that I was sick, NO Everybody was "can you do this and can you do that". No one asked are you ok Mamah until I couldn't get up. What ever mess I made I had to Clean up no my own. So I came to the fact that if I can do all this shit sick as a dog imagine what I can do when I'm well. Yeah that's how I got to look at it to keep me focused away from the sad fact that no one really gives a shit but then there is karma and it will bit you in the ass in the end.

Wow What A F-ed Up Week

Yeah I'm back with some more shit that happened this time its about my phone.
Ok last thursday I call my carrier to complain about my phone acting up so they ordered me one right.
None of the ass holes called me back to let me know that the damn thing was on back order so I called to check on it Saturday and  they tried to check the order and gave me a date of tuesday. Ok I get the phone and it worse than my first one so I have to take it in to the store. Craziness just pure craziness.

How I Feel

I depressed and Its my falt.
I spent the last 11 years in the house. I have come to grips with it being my prison so it doesn't feel right going anywhere that doesn't befits me like school the grocery store or the library. I don't chill with people in the hood because I can only learn how to be a low life asshole that's going no where fast. I want to be around people who I can learn some shit from , people who got insight and good fortune. There is nothing here to look forward to. I walked to the library last week and I thought I was on the set of I Am Legion after everybody died. It is a shame how people treat their neighborhood. I hate it here more than my last neighborhood.

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Damn Homework

Damn homework why must it be soo much work give to a college student. Instructors must think that we don't have a life out side school.
Damn I bearly have enough time to blog sometimes.
And sometimes I wished the information came to me like the winds blowing in the fall season.
Any how I have to get back to work blog later.

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OMG What Is This And Why Did It Pick Me

So I'm in alot of pain right now and I know something is not right at all.
For the love of God why is my body hating me right now?
Being a woman is not easy at all.
I think men have it so easy they dont have to go thru the things women go thru but if they did I think they would end their lives.

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I Found Yet Another One

For those who know me know that I am obsessed with cellphones and

cellphone technology. How I got a Evo 4G and its a pretty cool ass phone and

I'm not giving it up but they just came out with the Evo 4G 3D and form the

look of it its promising and I also had my eye on another phone called Acer

Iconia Smart now its a nice looking phone if you like your phone big but

because its not in my carriers line up and not even offered in the US I sort of

steered away from that one. But I tell you what I'm going to do seeing that I'm

due for a upgrade I'm going to save my little penny's and I'm going to upgrade

this time without selling my first Evo back to the carrier and I swear I'm done

with buying phones (like I was when I got the first Evo). This is a never ending

battle for me because like I said cellphones are my fetish. So you will see I will

constantly blog about my phone and you will see how many I go thru. One of

these days their going to stop making them and only then will I stop buying

phones cause I cant resist them. Sometimes I feel I could take a phone over any

human man or woman but not my kids they come before anything after God.

Damn No Action Today

Well today is one of those days where there is not much to do but the day

hasn't ended yet. Earlier I tried to crack open a laptop to fix it but I cant seem

to get the housing to come off of it so I gave up temporally before I broke it all

apart I figure I'll wait and ask Mr.Man for help on it when he gets off work.

Now last night I tried to build a circuit and that was a bust cuz I couldn't find

the parts on the multi Sims program on my computer.

So the only thing I got to do today is cook, Blog and clean the house It seems

to be getting harder and harder to break away from the norm these days.

I cant wait until Tuesday gets here at least I get to get out of the house even if

it is to go to school. I'll add more as it happens or not happen today.

Drama On My Street As Usual

About 30 minutes ago a mass hoard of teen were running and walking down

the street. Seeing that it was about thirty of the fuckers I knew it couldn't be

good.  Just when I thought I needed to waste a phone call by calling police

(who don't do shit and almost never show the fuck up)  I see the mom of one

teen I know who is 15 and just got out of jail for the 8th time walking with her

sister behind all these teens.

Now thinking a fight would start with the teen it didn't the grown up chased all

the teens away by screaming and cursing and fussing with them then they

turned on one another like animals in the wild.

Prime example of why I stay the hell out and away from crowds. It really don't

help to live in the corner house to witness the shit either.

Ok I think I Got This Right

Ok This is my second blog nobody bothered to view the first one so I deleted it

but kthis one will be a hot mess so try to keep up with me or should I try to

keep up with you? If  you viewed my profile you know I am a student, mother

who is not married yet and I will get in to why that is later because it is a long

dragged out story. So what do you think about my layout on my blog? I do not

think I'm going to delete this one and yes it will have alot of stories to share on

it and alot of drama so stay tuned cuz classes start next Tuesday.